The man with the child in his eyes

There is a Kate Bush song called ‘The man with the child in his eyes’. That is where I am at present. I have, as you can tell by some of my previous posts, been somewhat down. At if you take a close look at my present situation then its not exactly amazing, but for some reason I am walking around with a smile on my face. I am looking like ‘The man with the child in his eyes’. I talk some more about this on my other blog http://kilveyshaman.blogspot.com When I am out and about I seem to be in a good mood, but for some reason when I am at home I tend too have a short fuse, I do not as yet understand why, but I need to sort it out and soon, as it is not fair on Ieuan, Heulwen or even myself. So until next time, Enjoy life, its too short to be miserable.

When the universe smiles

How do you know you are on the right path? This happened too me 3 years ago, and is happening to me again, it seems so obvious that I will not and cannot deny it to myself. When my feet walk upon the right path, the universe smiles at me and sends me signs that help to confirm that my choices where the right ones. The universe also tries to hint to me as to what direction I should travel, and when my mind is tuned in, the signs are easier to read. It seems that this last week, and especially since the 1st February, all I have been doing is ‘bumping’ into people that all follow paganism in some aspect. Each of these people have allowed me the opportunity to explore an aspect of myself. Bumping into one person is just random luck, but when it is two, then three, then four people, it becomes difficult to discredit it. All of this reminds me of when I was first looking into paganism and then started working in Swansea Foyer, there were so many signs that it was unbelievable, and now it is happening again. Sometimes its amazing to know just how much the universe cares about us.

Turning the wheel

Well, the festival of Imbolc is past, although its impact will probably be felt for a long time in my life. At the moment I feel reborn and I am looking at life through eyes of wonder. I am presently trying to grasp a concept that Leo Rutherford talks about with regards to the medicine wheel, essentially that ‘the world is as we make it’, we make our own lifes, by imposing our perceptions on it, which in turn become a sort of self fulfilling prophecy. This can be a good thing if you understand it and then learn to control it. All of this existence is energy in motion, Einstein remarked once that Reality is just an illusion, but a persistant one. So it seems that I am a young babe again learning how to walk, looking at the lessons that I need to learn. Most of this world is based on cycles, patterns that repeat, and I am sure that a lot of celtic teaching follow this principle. But a spiral when viewed from one angle looks just like a circle, and it would seem that it is repeating, but when viewed from another angle, it can be seen that there is progression, that you are moving towards something, althought the ground might seem familiar there are always new things to learn. And so I return to my books, and the basic teachings of shamanism and the medicine wheel. I feel that I need to ground myself first before I learn to fly, and although it seems that I am starting all over again, in fact, I have moved on, and am learning things in a new and different light. One thing I hope to do soon is to write down exactly what it is that I believe in, perhaps by establishing the boundaries of the territory that I walk in the country will become more clear, as will my destination.