Reflections in the Water

I look at myself in the mirror and I see what I see every day, a middle aged, balding, overweight man, who also is overworked, tired and often rundown. This does not scare me, I have seen this image for quite some time now. What scares me is I am starting to see it in my son, and that is very disturbing.

So what am I going to do? Does my son actually, on some level, wish to emulate me both physically and mentally?

Therefore I have decided that I need to look at my life and sort some facets of it that I have neglected. I need to become the example that my son needs.

Now the the million pound question, How do I do that?

I think its time I started looking at my whole lifestyle, my diet, my work, my family time. I need to see where I can rejig things so that I gain the most value out of my life as it stands, so that I can wring every last experience out of every day, instead of spending it laying on the bed, or staring at the telivision.

I feel like I have become that which I hate, that happy idiot who surrounds himself with material gains in some vain attempt to make his life worthwhile. What can I take with me, nothing, so how should I life my life? How can I learn to love myself once more and in so doing become that which my son needs.

Web hosting

Well I have taken the plunge and decided to actually pay for some decent web hosting and it was worth every penny.  I could go alll techie on you here but I will control myself.  Basically I can do whatever I want now, whereas the support given by NTL was far from adequate.

One of the main benefits is that I can use my domain name the way I wanted too and I can also incorporate my two blogs into my website.  So although it looks like this site has been around for some time, in fact, it only started life this weekend.

I hope you all enjoy it as I spend more and more time developing it over the next few months and years.  I hope it becomes a place that you want to keep coming back too.

Whitesun.org.uk

A small gift for Heulwen.  I just obtained the domain whitesun.org.uk for her.

For those that do not know Heulwen is a welsh name, which if taken apart becomes two words heul (which means Sun) and wen (which means White).