A summary of this last week

Well its been a busy week for sure, and yet I am still in a really good mood. So I thought I would go through the highlights.

Monday – I went into work for a couple of hours o cover and really enjoyed bouncing around and confusing the residents who are used to me being there in the nights. One of our sessionals started today too and it was a young woman who used to be a resident there, one who I actually interviewed for her to get into the project.  I was even more bouncy and fluffy after that.  After a weekend of vanishing and not answering her phone, my friend resurfaced, so I was in a good mood, knowing that she was ok.  Monday evening I then arranged to go out Tuesday evening.

Tuesday – In work till 2.30pm, then rushed around town to pick up borthday and mothers day cards.  I bumped into Pink Jes, an old resident, who holds a special place in my heart.  Was still in a really good mood from the day before and this just made it better.  In the evening went to visit my friend the mighty cif and had a wonderful 2 hours of catching up on all the gossip.  I could not of been more gay (shame I am straight though – INIT – in gruff voice).  We had just loads of fun, complimenting each other and chatting, I cannot wait for a repeat performance.  Then I went over to Sarahs and tried to mess with My nephew and nieces heads for half an hour.

Wednesday – In work all day again, enjoyed it, spent time with the young people and staff obviously, also caught up with one of the staff who I never really got much time to talk too.  By the end of the shift I was doing my usual, chatting to 3-4 residents, sitting on the garden bench, instead  of being in the office, but thats what I do, youth work, not office work……The evening I spent down Anna’s and Kris listening to Rock music and having a great time.

Thursday – Back onto nights today so the day was generally a quiet one, catching up on stuff in the house, dancing, listening to music, taking flowers over to my mothers house, and then displaying said flowers (another gay moment).  But still bouncing and having a lot of fun.  That night then chilling with the residents at the foyer, who did not go to their beds till about 7am to be honest.

Friday – Well I went to Ieuans school play so actually did not go to sleep after work.  Nipped up to Heulwens for a quick Breakfast then down to the school.  My mother was chatting to me in the queue while I was doing my level best to flirt with 4 of the mothers in the queue (of which one sat with me – hehehehe).  Really enjoyed the play, was clapping and swaying and even singing along with the kids, I bet the other parents thought I was weird.  Flirted some more on the way out and then as soon as I got home, phoned Heulwen to find out about this woman.  Heulwen agreed that she was definitely flirting back.  Bed by 12, up at 5.30, showered and off to my Brothers so we could all go out for a meal with my mam for her birthday, where I bragged about my flirting powers to my brother, my mother agreeing with me all the time, lol.  Stuart can be reserved at times.  Back into work Friday night for an all nite film nite with the residents in the foyer, me loaded down with films, welsh cakes and cappacinos.  It was overall a really good night.

Saturday – Eventually got to bed about 10.15, and was up at 12.30 – so barely 2 hours sleep.  Then off to pick up Ieuan and take him to town to get his mother a present.  Bumped into some of the residents in town and a few girls form youth club, also bumped into Marc, my old boss in Virginmedia and Lisa, a friend of a friend, who offered me her phone number (Is that allowed)  Then it was entertaining my Father for the evening, before crawling to bed at 11pm, where I slept till 8.30, wow a whole 9.5 hours of sleep,and I needed it.

But guess wot I am still bouncing, and in a really good positive mood and I have not even mentioned Gaynor from Baglan (My Myspace flirting) or the rest of my female friends (All training for Sin City next Friday)……

Bye for now folks, hope you all have a good laugh reading this chapter of the

‘Adventures of the Kilvey Shaman’ 

I love you all, I really do

G

Don’t – A collaborated poem about love and relationships

A friend of mine wrote this one verse poem, which to me is absolutely fantastic, the style for one, and most definitely the way it allows you to fall into the trap so clearly sprung in the last line.

Don’t

Don’t hold my hand in yours
but still look somewhere else

Don’t kiss me on the lips
and tell lies with yours as well

Don’t tell me that you’ll need me
when we both know that you won’t

Don’t tell me that you love me
when you want a jump

Don’t use me as a crutch, a spare,
any port in a storm will do.

Don’t think of me as a back up plan
whilst waiting for someone new.

Don’t think I’ll wait for you forever.
I have done my waiting for you.

Don’t think these words are for you.
You are wrong and always were.

Afer a few weeks of readng and re-reading this poem I had the urge to write the next verse of the poem for her, and offered it to her as a gift, she liked it and so, with her consent, I am placing both verses on here.

Don’t hold their hand in yours
while I look somewhere else

Don’t kiss them on the lips
while I imagine yours on mine

Don’t tell them that you need them
when my heart aches for you

Don’t use me as a crutch, a spare
even though I always let you

Don’t think of yourself as a backup plan
when you have always been my first

Don’t think of waiting forever for them
when I am waiting for you

Don’t think these words are not for you
You fool! they always were!

Now in this second verse it really complicates things as there are two clear relationships going on, the first is from the point of view of the person who wrote the verse, looking at another person and painfully in love with them, wishes that they would even notice them. The other is that of the person they talk about, who, it seems is blindly in love with another, third person, who uses and abuses this person, and the writer of the poem can see this clearly, yet yearns to be abused themselves, just for the recognition and chance of love.

Thank you for writing this Anna, it allowed both our talents to shine.