A quiet moment

Well Gaynor and her children moved in on Friday officially, although they have been here most nights for the last 3 weeks.

At present Ieuan and Carys have just gone to bed and Alex is already up there (on the computer). Gaynor is having a soak in the bath and I am having a quiet few minutes on the computer myself.

So far I have not lost any more hair and I have not killed any of the children. Gaynor and I had a little argument on Friday night, but considering how tired we both were and the pressure of the whole moving day for Gaynor then no wonder really. We did however both resolve the argument before going to bed and even had Carys mediating between us (nice to see how much she cares for us both)

Ieuan is finding it difficult adjusting to the increase of people in this house, having to share his father with other people, but I hope that he adjusts soon. I try my best to be fair with him and the other children and at the same time give him opportunities to have time alone with me, although he usually is in the middle of a mood when I offer him some time and then he goes through the ‘cutting his nose off to spite his face’ phase and ends up missing out on a good moment with his dad. All things said though he still seems to want to spend more time with me and Gaynor. So far he has spent an average of 5 nights a week this month with me and might even get to 6 nights this week.

Ah well Gaynor has finished in the bath and just popped up stairs to give all the kids a kiss (Ieuan seems to be very keen for the kisses too, which Gaynor is so chuffed about). I had better log off for now then so will see you all soon….

Carys just ran past for a wee…..lol…..And gave me a kiss on the way back…

Loving you all

Papa G

weight loss update

Yeaaaa………….

18 stone 13.2 pounds (I had to type it long form).

I am now in the 18 stone zone, who would of thought

bye for now folks

A happy Papa G (only slightly stressed from the moving lol)

The Parent Trap

I am a parent, I have been a parent for nearly 10 years.  Odd how that sounds, almost as if I was at an AA meeting, its as if its something to be ashamed of.  I love my son dearly and gladly would shout it from the rooftops.  It is not something I am ever ashamed of, however……these feelings of Parenthood have recently been expanding to include others.  And it seems that it is a role that I am now playing more often.  I had got into a routine of being a parent on the weekends, but recently (The last couple of months) I am being a parent every day, visiting my son, when he is not at home and also taking on a guardian role in the lives of two other children.

The little free time I have had over the last couple of days I spend tidying two bedrooms to make sure that three beds were all made and tidy for this weekend.  I also spent time cleaning out two drawers so that I could put some of their clothes away…..and the odd thing was, I was content to do just that, sitting on a bed, tidying clothes and putting them away.

I am also worrying about little things like what to feed them, where to take them, what to do with them, how to ensure that they enjoy the weekend.  I do not seem to care whether I have money any more, just so long as I have enough money to look after all three of them.

Don’t get me wrong, I have no intention of spoiling any of them, just that I want to make sure that all three are secure. content and safe.

Granted I enjoyed having a small amount of disposable income when I spent the last 15 months living on my own, and spending a bit more on my son, taking him out to the cinema, or treating him in town with a big mac, or a couple of dvds, etc.  However money is now a bit tighter with more people to look after.  Before I left my ex-wife, I gave all the money to her to manage, retaining no control over how money was spent, so the last 15 months have certainly been interesting.  Now however the problem of stretching the money is mine to resolve, to budget for 4.5 people instead of 1.5 people is one hell of a steep learning curve, one I hope I can figure out….

Loving you all

Papa G

You & Me

The first time I heard this song it was one of those very geeky tearful moments, How? you ask…..Well I was watching Smallville and Clark and Lana are dancing when this song comes on, and tears just streamed down my cheeks (Silly or what). Well I was listening to this song yesterday and it just seemed appropriate that I blog the lyrics here.

You & Me – Lifehouse

what day is it
and in what month
this clock never seemed so alive
I can’t keep up
and I can’t back down
I’ve been losing so much time

cause it’s you and me and all of the people
with nothing to do
nothing to lose
and it’s you and me and all of the people
and I don’t know why
I can’t keep my eyes off of you

all of the things that I want to say
just aren’t coming out right
I’m tripping inwards
you got my head spinning
I don’t know where to go from here

cause it’s you and me and all of the people
with nothing to do
nothing to prove
and it’s you and me and all of the people
and I don’t know why
I can’t keep my eyes off of you

there’s something about you now
I can’t quite figure out
everything she does is beautiful
everything she does is right

you and me and all of the people
with nothing to do
nothing to lose
and it’s you and me and all of the people
and I don’t know why
I can’t keep my eyes off of you

you and me and all of the people
with nothing to do
nothing to prove
and it’s you and me and all of the people
and I don’t know why
I can’t keep my eyes off of you

what day is it
and in what month
this clock never seemed so alive

I sort of feel like parts of the song when I am in the company of a certain woman (Mama G), never really wanting it too end, but knowing that the clock is always racing on, regardless of my desire for it too slow down.

Loving you all

G (Papa G)