Lonely Nights, Relationships, Lust and Soul mates
Before reading this entry into my blog, it is perhaps advisable to read a selection of my musings over the last year or so about related topics;
2009/06/06 – lust versus love and chasing dreams
2009/09/13 – late night thoughts
2009/10/06 – maybe i should of started off with a plant
2009/11/24 – friends will be friends
So after reading all those posts to help set the scene, I expect you are all thinking so what am I going to write about now. Well I don’t really know, I got a vague sense of where I want to go with this like in some of my previous blogs, I think I will just let my fingers do the talking.
I found in an old ‘draft’ blog that I never posted the following;
I am curious as to what people define as a soul mate, so have done a little digging with google and a few other websites to see if I can hammer out a definition….
Richard Bach describes soul mates as “A soulmate is someone who has the locks to fit our keys, and the keys to fit our locks. When we feel safe enough to open the locks, our truest selves step out and we can be completely and honestly who we; we can be loved for who we are and for who we’re pretending to be. Each of us unveils the best part of one another. No matter what else goes wrong around us, with that one person were safe in our paradise. Our soulmate is someone who shares our deepest longings, our sense of direction. When we’re two balloons, and together our direction is up, chances are we’ve found the right person. Our soulmate is the one who makes life come to life. “
Thomas Moore, in his book Soul Mates: Honoring the Mysteries of Love and Relationship, page xvii, describes a soul mate as “someone to whom we feel profoundly connected, as though the communication and communing that take place between us were not the product of intentional efforts, but rather a divine grace. This kind of relationship is so important to the soul that many have said there is nothing more precious in life.”
I don’t really know where I was trying to go with it, and I did forget about the post for quite some time too, but I think it needs to be in this post now.
So where am I now in my relationship, my spiritual journey, my love life, whatever you want to call it?
Well I have found someone, its the same someone that I started talking too last October. Things have been slowly moving forward, each of us has been taking cautious tentative steps in our relationship, and as time has moved on we have developed a deeper understanding and love for each other. It has certainly not been an easy ride, with complications that I will not go into on this blog. However these have only helped to define our feelings even more. Often in the sad moments our true feelings come through all the more intensely, showing our love to be even deeper than we imagined.
Over the months I have opened myself up more, revealing my feelings only to be met and matched by similar feelings from this wonderful person. I feel that whatever the future holds now, neither of us could bear the thought of spending it without the other, but we still recognise the value of exploring our relationship slowly, patiently and one day at a time.
In one of my previous posts, I talked about lust and love, and how most people seemed to be happy with just lust. I still firmly stand by tat opinion and am happy to know that I have striven over the years to find Love. I believe that if you find Love then Lust will come along for the ride and the combination of both will take you to a place that is so intense there will never be a need fr your eyes to wonder or your heart to yearn for another.
The phrase ‘I only have eyes for you’ have a meaning to me now. Last night after spending the evening out with my soul mate, I started to loose all sense of what was around me (even the big screen LCD tv) and could only see the smouldering passion in her eyes.
Where do I go from here, I don’t know………..I am now in uncharted territory, I have only my heart to guide me, there is no map or well trodden path to follow. I only hope that as I travel my hand is clasped firmly in hers and that we travel these new horizons together.
Gareth (formally ‘G’)
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