Maybe I should of started off with a plant?

I remember watching some program once where, in order to teach people about commitment in relationships and responsibility they would ban them from such and give them a plant to take home and care for,  Then, after years of looking after the plant they might work towards a small domestic pet.  Eventually they would be allowed to start seeing people, and building personal relationships.

Perhaps I should of bought a plant…..

Seriously though…….I keep taking out my permenant marker of life and circling this issue with me.  The double edged reality that I want to dive head long into a relationship, even though I know on another level that I need to rebuild my own life and links and enjoy being single first.

With that in mind I am happy to recognise the fact that I have had two positive experiences, going to town on my own to meet up with friends, socialising and enjoying thier company and then coming home.  I need to do this more, sort of like immersion therapy, eventually I will become comfortable enough with it that I will not think twice about the thought of going to town on an evening and merely moving from pub to pub or club to club with the confident knowledge that I will bump inot familar and friendly faces in each of them (Not that I want to turn into an alcoholic disco stu, lol).

Nonetheless I have enjoyed myself the last couple of times I have gone out.  This week I have a few more social engagements on my calendar and I am curious as to how well behaved I will be, you never know, in a couple of years time I might be allowed to look after a small pet……

G (Relationship Guru)

Loving all his friends (old and new)

Perving in Pwll

Well its a few days late now but i thought I just have to write up on my adventures in Pwll.

So there I was chatting to my friend on Monday evening, when I discovered that this poor soul was doing the late night bus home and was taking well over an hour to get home after finishing work at 10pm.  Now me being a Gentleman could not tolerate such a dilema for a damsel in distress (although I doubt she was distressing) so I offered her a lift for the following evening.  Thereafter followed a complex trail of text messages, insecurities, apologises and jokes which resulted in my picking up my friend from work at 10pm.  End result one delightful lady home early and a nice chat in a car about pagan things, a win win situation.

Once I was home and settled in I decided to chat to my other friend (from Pwll) and mentioned that I was up near her neck of the woods at about 10.30.  The result of that conversation was that I was going to pop in for coffee the following night after dropping my friend off.  So Wednesday morning I nipped over to tesco and decided to invest in a satnav, thinking it wouldl make my journey to Pwll easier ‘Driving like a local’ as the blurb said.

So anyway, to speed up a bit, another delightful conversation and one friend dropped off and then I pressed in my frineds address in the satnav.  And so began the journey that would take me to places I probably never want to go to again.

The lovely satnav suggested that I hit the motorway and head back from Langennech to Penllegar, then through Gorseinon, which I was half concerned about but dutifully obeyed this contraption.  Then it navigated me to loughor and suddenly demanded that I turn left as it intoned that magic phrase ‘You have arrived at your destination’…..NOT, I was in some side road of blinking loughor named maes yr haf, which was indeed the same name as my friends street, but I knew that the satnav was lying to me (deliberately so) .  So after the initial shock I texted my friend to get her address again whilst revising my eta and proceeded to drive towards the bridge heading towards Llanelli.

5 minutes later I pull up on some lane just off a roundabout while I read the text from my friend to update the satnav (with a hammer I was hoping).  So there was my car, headlights on, indicator flashing, in the middle of nowhere, at 11pm at night.  No wonder the police pulled up next to me, they must of thought I was either some perv or a drug dealer waiting for a some sort of drop.  So after some hasty explanations the police directed me a tad bit further on my journey into the unknown.  After two more texts and I think two more conversation on the phone I eventually managed to pull up in Pwll at about 11.20pm, after dropping off my first friend at 10.25, all of 10 minutes away, as I later found out when driving home.

I hope you all enjoyed this entertaining summary of my dark adventures in Pwll, literally I was in the dark, and without a clue too, hehehe…….

Love you all, a slightly relieved G – after getting home safely

Its a bit dusty around here, lol

My goodness – (wipes the dust off the window pane) Nobody has been around this old place for a while have they…..

My apologises to all those avid fans of my blog I have been somewhat remiss in my duties, but that is what life (and World of Warcraft) does to us.  We move on, we change our priorities, we experience madness, joy, love and hate.  We are pulled down and raised up and then when the seas of our live start to calm, and our emotional stomachs ease then we take time to look at our lives and revisit old haunts.

Sometimes this is useful as it can help us to reset our own internal compass, focus us back on our path in life.

So from sunset last night to sunset tonight it is the celtic festival of Imbolc, the festival of New Beginnings.  But does everything have to be new, or can we also use it to dust out the rooms of our life and put a new shine on them, see whats worth keeping and what might need to be thrown out…..

Oh and I refuse to talk about my weight until it gets back down to what it should be, oops I just did talk about it, damn, lol…..

G

A somewhat dusty and battered kilveyshaman

A very cheesy 80’s night

Well last night a friend of mine, Lisa, popped over, originally she was hoping to go to the cinema, but I had just spent out in town and also had Ieuan for the weekend, so I turned it into a movie night in.  So just guess which films we watched (Cheesy levels rising) -  Short Circuit and Short Circuit 2.  They were so much fun – Number 5 is alive…….

So wot did we do after that, went on Google Earth for a little bit and then listened to loud music, mostly from the 80’s as well, and unfortunately sang along to them, both of us knowing most of the words.  We both knew Electric Dreams, I knew some ‘Fame’ songs (sad init) and Lisa sang along to some songs from ‘Streets of Fire’, which had a strong Bonnie Tyler / Meat Loaf influence, echoes of ‘I need a hero’ are still in my head, lol….

Not bad for two kids from the 80s and not even a drop of alcohol in sight.

So here is to having a good time, and loving you all

G – an 80s kid at heart

A summary of this last week

Well its been a busy week for sure, and yet I am still in a really good mood. So I thought I would go through the highlights.

Monday – I went into work for a couple of hours o cover and really enjoyed bouncing around and confusing the residents who are used to me being there in the nights. One of our sessionals started today too and it was a young woman who used to be a resident there, one who I actually interviewed for her to get into the project.  I was even more bouncy and fluffy after that.  After a weekend of vanishing and not answering her phone, my friend resurfaced, so I was in a good mood, knowing that she was ok.  Monday evening I then arranged to go out Tuesday evening.

Tuesday – In work till 2.30pm, then rushed around town to pick up borthday and mothers day cards.  I bumped into Pink Jes, an old resident, who holds a special place in my heart.  Was still in a really good mood from the day before and this just made it better.  In the evening went to visit my friend the mighty cif and had a wonderful 2 hours of catching up on all the gossip.  I could not of been more gay (shame I am straight though – INIT – in gruff voice).  We had just loads of fun, complimenting each other and chatting, I cannot wait for a repeat performance.  Then I went over to Sarahs and tried to mess with My nephew and nieces heads for half an hour.

Wednesday – In work all day again, enjoyed it, spent time with the young people and staff obviously, also caught up with one of the staff who I never really got much time to talk too.  By the end of the shift I was doing my usual, chatting to 3-4 residents, sitting on the garden bench, instead  of being in the office, but thats what I do, youth work, not office work……The evening I spent down Anna’s and Kris listening to Rock music and having a great time.

Thursday – Back onto nights today so the day was generally a quiet one, catching up on stuff in the house, dancing, listening to music, taking flowers over to my mothers house, and then displaying said flowers (another gay moment).  But still bouncing and having a lot of fun.  That night then chilling with the residents at the foyer, who did not go to their beds till about 7am to be honest.

Friday – Well I went to Ieuans school play so actually did not go to sleep after work.  Nipped up to Heulwens for a quick Breakfast then down to the school.  My mother was chatting to me in the queue while I was doing my level best to flirt with 4 of the mothers in the queue (of which one sat with me – hehehehe).  Really enjoyed the play, was clapping and swaying and even singing along with the kids, I bet the other parents thought I was weird.  Flirted some more on the way out and then as soon as I got home, phoned Heulwen to find out about this woman.  Heulwen agreed that she was definitely flirting back.  Bed by 12, up at 5.30, showered and off to my Brothers so we could all go out for a meal with my mam for her birthday, where I bragged about my flirting powers to my brother, my mother agreeing with me all the time, lol.  Stuart can be reserved at times.  Back into work Friday night for an all nite film nite with the residents in the foyer, me loaded down with films, welsh cakes and cappacinos.  It was overall a really good night.

Saturday – Eventually got to bed about 10.15, and was up at 12.30 – so barely 2 hours sleep.  Then off to pick up Ieuan and take him to town to get his mother a present.  Bumped into some of the residents in town and a few girls form youth club, also bumped into Marc, my old boss in Virginmedia and Lisa, a friend of a friend, who offered me her phone number (Is that allowed)  Then it was entertaining my Father for the evening, before crawling to bed at 11pm, where I slept till 8.30, wow a whole 9.5 hours of sleep,and I needed it.

But guess wot I am still bouncing, and in a really good positive mood and I have not even mentioned Gaynor from Baglan (My Myspace flirting) or the rest of my female friends (All training for Sin City next Friday)……

Bye for now folks, hope you all have a good laugh reading this chapter of the

‘Adventures of the Kilvey Shaman’ 

I love you all, I really do

G

For Pete

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Weekly Love for January 14, 2008

If you have love on your mind, the stars are here to help — especially this Wednesday and Thursday. Now’s the time to go out on a romantic limb: Ask a certain question of a certain someone. Let a feeling be known. Feel them out about an idea. You get the picture! On Monday and Tuesday, though, be sure you look very, very carefully before you do any leaping, romancewise. Communication requires extra thought and interpretation on Friday and Saturday. However, on Sunday, you’re just plain hot — so how about a hot brunch date?

Well ok I have been thinking a hell of a lot about things this last week, especially early on in the week.  As far as putting out feelers, ok just a day later that it says, Saturday, nothing, so now its all waitinf for today, Sunday, apparantly I am going to be smokin……..

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Who cares wins?

I know its a bit cheesy for a title to this entry in the blog…

I was talking last night (early morning) to a friend of mine on Messenger and she hit the proverbial nail on the head.  I care for people,  and there in lies the problem, it generally means that people walk all over me.  But putting all that to one side, the truth of the matter is that  i care a lot for those close to me.  Don Juan might be the worlds greatst lover and might love all women, well I care for  all women.  Off hand I can  count about 15 without too much effort, women and girls that I care a great deal for and would not like or wish harm to befall them.  I would also be there, if possible, when they need me, no matter what.

It does not however mean that I ‘Love’ them in the more carnal sense, it merely means that if they hurt, then I hurt a little too.

This actually makes a lot of sense to me, and with some of them I might of, in the past, confused care with love.  lets be honest, who has not.  When you are really lonely then you will….

So now I am learning to separate one from the other, the question is now, who, if anyone, do I love, something which, naturally, I have been thinking of a lot today.

I also realise that there are those out there that care a great deal for me too……..and those that might actually love me…….

Another turn of the wheel – another new beginning

Well Christmas is out of the way and so are the new year festivities.  Now I can sit down and take stock of my life.

Today I weighted myself and am 308 lb.  So I put on 4lb over the christmas period, not too bad considering everything.  As of today I am refocusing and starting my exercises and healthy eating plans (not diet, lol).

I am also starting a new job today, so it will be very interesting on how that will impact om my personal and social life.  I also need to refocus on several other areas of my life too, essentially my emotional (love) and spiritual (pagan) life.

So my agenda (at least for today) is to eat healthy, exercise and later today to light a candle and chill.  I will worry about my love life another day, lol

See you all soon

Gareth, the refocussing Shaman

Merry Christmas to one and all

Merry Christmas to everyone who knows me.Its 12.33 in the morning andI reckon I should go to bed else Santa will not arrive.  Nite nite folks and hope you all have a wonderful Christmas later on today.

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